Anxity - 小四的日志

I'm a strange person, i always want to make everything clean and neat around me, or i canont concentrate on my study,you may can't believe that disorder may make me anxious Every time i think of the piles of textbooks newspapers, radio lie in a mess on the desk. i got crazy ,i will put everything aside to collect them and put them back where they should be.this awful illness brothers me a lot.not everting that i can control .everything is changing ,so why should i always worry wnen the roof will collapse when she will return my money.or someting like that ,to be frank, if i cannot change this situation, i will absolutely got mad at lastone day.but how to load off the burdens from my shouldes,how to ease my heart, i can't relieve my soul all the time maybe this is a hot potato to solve!